Binge Eating Disorder (BED) and My Path to Recovery

To look at me now, you would not think it, but I struggled with binge eating for quite a number of years. All the way through my childhood, my teenage years, and about two years ago I had a bad relapse at a time when I struggled with a chronic pain condition. When I was a child I was obese by the clinical definition (though my mother would argue that I was only a little chubby). But I am in and around the same weight now, as I was when I was 12. This in spite of actually having quite a fast metabolism.

I recall nights where my heart would be racing due to the sheer amount of food I ate, followed by 1-2 hours of broken sleep as a result of worsening acid reflux. It made me feel so ashamed of myself, but for some reason, I just couldn't control it. When I would binge, it was like I was possessed.